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October 06, 2005
Hidden Wisdom
Sometimes, in times of absolute exhaustion, several revelations dawn upon me.
I realised that:
1) At the end of the day, all it takes is just a good crazy run to make me smile.
2) If I actually make the effort to be nice to mean people, at some point, they do break and become nice to me.
3) Sometimes, silence is golden. The BF is gone to Xi'An for a week and suddenly, not hearing from him, I begin to miss him dearly and remember I do love him. The same happened when the Ex went overseas in the previous relationship. Absolute absence, perhaps, does make the heart grow fonder. It's internet that's the bitch.
4) There is something about walking the streets of Singapore at night that revitalises me. I like to feel granite, through my Birkies, under my soles. I like to walk till my thighs hurt. I like to breathe the night air and wonder what goes on beyond the dark streets. And so I condemn my proper day job which forbids me from walking my nights away.
5) I'm in a strange pensive mood and I wait for the day I can write proper again.
6) I am tired but working late alone in the office brings on a strange sense of calm and satisfaction. It reminds me of nights alone at the Melb Uni Computer Lab, working on papers with nothing but my music and courage.
Posted by lainey at October 6, 2005 12:13 AM