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April 14, 2004
Pitch Black
My family was caught in the black-out last night.
I managed to muster up some candles and in the dancing candle-light, chatted with the other half on the phone. Yesterday had been a rather trying day for me. Being stuck at home the entire day because of cramps and PMS, I was feeling really down and redundant and convinced that I will never be of use to the rest of the world. Talking to him in darkness made me realised I am in darkness.
My life is currently experiencing a black out. And I will try to light as many candles as I can to at least get by now. I'm just sitting quietly in the corner, waiting for power to be restored. But it will be restored, and it can be restored. I just need to be patient. In the meantime, I need to look for as many candles as possible.
Candlelight is really quite pretty. And darkness is, at times, rather sobering.
Life really ain't that bad. And despite moments of uncertainty, it is something I firmly believe. At the end of the day, I always know Nietszche to be true.
What doesn't kill you, can only make you stronger.
I am still alive. I can only be stronger. Never weaker. It's an upwards climb. Always. It has to be.
Posted by lainey at April 14, 2004 10:55 AM
Comments
Nietzsche said that? Mmmmm didn't know that. Damn I have been quoting him without acknowledging him, bloody hell.
Posted by: Silenus at April 14, 2004 06:35 PM
We all live behind a mask....and if you are lucky the mask you present is one that will be approved of by significant others, then you can feel happy and content because we all need approval. But if your mask slips or the one you have is the wrong colour or shape or it doesnt fit you anymore it begins to feel uncomfortable. This is the time you get the nagging feeling that something isnt quite right....Dont have any answers except you are born therefore you are worthwhile.....if it is of any help if you were a rotten sort of individual you wouldnt be bothered with being of worth...it would not be an issue to you....I myself have a philosopy...I can only be me.. if i try to change then i lose contact with my inner self and if others dont like it tough...there is nothing you can do...altimately you are a master of your own destiny...you have to find your own gestalt...but beware for beyond this point there may be dragons.
Posted by: morgan at April 22, 2004 08:20 AM
u sound so sure of yourself, sounds good to me. :)
Posted by: lainey at April 22, 2004 09:04 AM