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January 27, 2004
Clouds
I might have lost my ability to write in public. I would blog occasionally, and delete away the posts before I publish them. There are times when I would post an entry, only to delete it after a few hours, or a few days.
It seems like exposing my thoughts and feelings is an awkward experience now even though I am in dire need of catharsis.
Do people even trust another anymore?
I want to. Despite being someone who is more used to rushing headlong into things, forever thrashing things out, saying what I feel, doing what I want and following the heart, I've been scared of my impulses and feelings of late. I've learnt to restrain myself. I'm darthly scared of being hurt.
But this limboic state of nowhere is not for me. I feel like repressed and like a zombie. In so doing, I end up in a drugged state where nothing quite matters and float around on a cloud in reality.
I'm not sure what's going on, and I don't know what I'm doing.
Maybe it's the rain. I like the rain, but it should stop cuz it's indulging me too much.
Lainey should never be pampered.
Posted by lainey at January 27, 2004 03:47 PM
Comments
Nobody's forcing the rain to do anything. :)
*hugs and khishes*
mel.
Posted by: mew at February 1, 2004 04:29 PM