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April 03, 2003
delusions
if i don't say it out, or tell anyone; there's no one to verify the truth.
and if there's no one to verify truth. then it is not truth.
so can i just keep it in me for a while? until it becomes real.
and hopefully, it will not become real.
let not truth materialise.
Posted by lainey at April 3, 2003 01:53 AM
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and then, after a while, you start saying it out loud. because you feel you need to. because the reality is undeniable. and you tell it, and tell it, and tell it, until it feels unreal again. and then one day, years later, you realise, as you are telling it again, that you haven't told it in ages, and ages. that you don't really need to tell it anymore, that you haven't been telling it because the need to tell it wore off ages ago. and then the reality hits you, all over again. what do you do, then?
Posted by: re-minisce. at April 7, 2003 08:32 AM
hey. :)
i'm only at the beginning of the cycle, and u are painting such a future for me. trying to scare the wits out of me, huh? :)
what do i do? i don't know. whatever life decides me to do then. too far, can't think too far, people like me, like us, try to get through one day at a time.
Posted by: lainey at April 7, 2003 05:27 PM