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March 09, 2003
She started the floodgates..
I guess, I've sort of become the Queen of long-distance relationships. And Ingrid, my friend's girlfriend, is new to a long-distance relationship. And she asked me this:
"how do u live your days waiting for someeone who will not come back for months?"
That started the floodgates.
How do I live my days? Terribly. Like I'm in a dream. Like I'm in this world that I have no control over.
I want to be with him. I need to be with him. I have to be with him.
But I can't.
I can't feel him, hear him or touch him.
I can't do anything but wait.
So when Ingrid asked me the question, I wanted to help her. To help her cope better. To help her feel better. Because I understand how she feels. And how hard it is. And how painful it is. But it didn't stop me from crying. After not crying for so long.
How do I live my days?
By dying over and over again a million times a day.
Posted by lainey at March 9, 2003 01:38 AM